Saturday, November 28, 2015

#GivingTuesday

#GivingTuesday is rapidly  approaching!  I hope you'll join us on December 1st by participating in this growing movement of giving of ourselves to help others.  If you are looking for someplace to GIVE, please go to https://www.crowdrise.com/TeamCampbellFoundation to add a brick to our Giving Tower.  You can also make a donation directly on our website www.teamcampbellfoundation.org/donate.  All donations received between now and December 1st will go directly to providing holiday assistance to families fighting childhood cancer.  Right now, we have $10,000 for this program.  We would LOVE to DOUBLE that amount!
We know first hand how expensive childhood cancer is.  It is much more than co-pays and deductibles.  There are tens of thousands of dollars in additional uncovered expenses, not to mention the loss of income because of unpaid time off from work to care for the sick child.  When given the choice, many times family have to pick co-pays instead of food.  Now, imagine the additional stress the holidays create....  It is downright awful.  Depressing.  There is no joy.  
Don't get me wrong.  It's not about material things.  It's about being able to take the time to put a smile on their children's faces.  This could be an afternoon at the movies and a dinner out for their family.  It could be  skiing, or ice-skating, or going to a Broadway show.  It could be THOSE boots that a 15 year old receiving radiation to her spine really wants. but the funds just aren't there because of the hundreds of dollars that need to be spent driving to and from the hospital each day for six weeks.  It could be an afternoon for mani-pedis for a mom and her SuperSibs.  Honestly, it could be a haircut for mom.  It could be an evening at a hockey game for Dad and the patient.  I could be a cookie exchange party for the patient and her friends because her blood counts happen to be good and she is allowed to be around people.
Your donation toward our #GivingTuesday campaign could provide all of this and MORE.
All donations made between now and December 1, will go directly toward this holiday campaign.  Your donation will make it's way directly into the hands of a family fighting childhood cancer.  Can you help?

Much love and gratitude for your unending support these last 6+ years,
Robin

Monday, September 28, 2015

Team Campbell FOUNDATION!!!!

For those who aren't on Facebook, or who don't see us in person on a regular basis, we are now an official 501(c)3 non-profit!

The Team Campbell Foundation was created to continue Cam's legacy of Love, Hope and Progress for families fighting childhood cancer by raising awareness, funding research, and providing psycho-social enrichment opportunities for families in the fight. We incorporated about a year ago and received our non-profit status earlier in 2015. We have a snazzy new web-site (www.teamcampbellfoundation.org). Please be sure to check it out and check back often to keep up-to-date on our happenings!
So far this year, we've hosted several fundraisers and events, partnering with the Max Challenge of Basking Ridge, JPW Consulting, City National Bank, Viaggio's, O-PA!, Bedwell Elementary School HSA, and the Somerset Patriots! We've raised over $40,000 in less than a year! Not too bad for our first year in "business"! I'm not surprised since we have the Power of Cam behind us :-)
We have TWO really great things in the works!

  • A Caribbean Vacation Raffle!  Only $75 for a chance to win a fabulous all expense paid trip for two to the Luxury Bahia Principe Ambar, in Punta Cana, DR!  This prize is valued at $6,500!  Only 250 tickets will be sold.  Visit http://www.teamcampbellfoundation.org/event/raffle-all-inclusive-trip-for-two/ to order your ticket for this incredible opportunity!  The sound of the ocean, the feel of the sand in your toes, gorgeous pools with swim-up bars, premium drinks delivered to your beach cabana,  $500 to spend on spa treatments, excursions, airport parking at home... Whatever you'd like!
  • Join us at Delicious Heights in Bedminster, NJ on 10/19 from 11am-11pm!  5% of the day's profits will benefit families fighting childhood cancer via the Team Campbell Foundation!  This includes lunch, dinner, dine-in, take-out and the bar!  I can't think of a better reason NOT to cook!!!  Visit http://deliciousheights.com/bedminster/ to plan that treat meal!

Friday, September 5, 2014

So it's been quite a while....

It's been 16 months since our last post. I apologize. We rely way too much on Facebook. I will try to summarize.
Cam continued on 5FU over the summer of 2013. Robin, Caitlin and Campbell attended a national sales meeting for Brooks Brothers in August 2013 to speak as a St. Jude family. Cam was to be featured in the St. Jude Thanks and Giving Campaign, with a focal appearance in Brooks Brothers catalogs, on their website and in their stores. Cam's grandfather works for Brooks Brothers, so her story really hit close to home. That was an amazing experience.

A few weeks later, Robin and Campbell went to Memphis for Cam's Cycle 3 scans. They showed mixed results. Some tumors were continuing to shrink, some were stabilized, but unfortunately one had grown significantly. Cam was no longer eligible to continue on the clinical trial at St. Jude. We went home where Cam's amazing neuro-surgeon, Dr. Jeffrey Greenfield, removed the growing tumor. It was a successful surgery, removing all of the tumor. Around this time, Dr. Greenfield's research lab was receiving federal approval to perform full genetic sequencing on cancerous tumors. We were offered this service as part of a research grant. We jumped at the opportunity. This should provide just the information we needed to help guide our next treatment choices. While we waited for those results, Cam would continue on 5FU off-trial, under the sole care of MSKCC, since the remaining tumors were still responding.

In November 2013, Cam had another scan which showed her compression fractures in her spine had worsened. Surgery was discussed, but deemed not an option. The surgery would have involved rods and screws. The screws would need to be anchored to good bones to stabilize her spine. Cam did not have any good bones in her spine. She had the bones of an elderly woman suffering from osteopenia. She was started on high doses of calcium and vitamin D3 and an IV drug (received monthly) to help with calcium absorption and increase bone density. She went from a night time scoliosis brace to a day-time TLSO brace that kept her torso immobilized. Around this time, because of the increased risks the fractures posed, we made the difficult decision to pull Campbell from ballet classes. She was devastated.

In December 2013, Campbell had her next full brain and spine scan. Unfortunately another one of the tumors had started to grow. It was pressing on the brain stem and causing symptoms. This surgery was much trickier, even trickier than her first surgery, simply because of the location. It basically was two tumors that had each grown and had merged into one tumor with a large blood vessel for the brain running through it. The surgery required two different entrance points and two different surgeons. Dr. Greenfield and Dr. Souwedaine tag-teamed it. The surgery again was considered a success, although due to the location of the tumor(s), there were two cranial nerves permanently damaged. This resulted in an eyelid that did not close fully (causing dry eye and corneal abrasions) and an eye that did not move at an even rate as the other eye. Regardless, we were working with a neuro-opthalmologist at Weill-Cornell who assured us that with patching the tracking problem could fix itself and that the eyelid problem could be surgically fixed at some point.

Cam came off 5FU. We were still waiting for the results of the gene sequencing of Campbell's tumors (the January 2014 tumors were added as well). Campbell tried a different drug, based on some lab studies done at St. Jude, gemcitabine during February and March 2014. It did not work.

In February 2014, Cam began complaining of occasional double vision. We tried patching to help this (you patch the weaker eye to improve the muscle), but it frustrated Campbell because she simply couldn't see as well out of the bad eye because of the corneal scratches. Everything was hazy and blurry. It just wasn't a fight worth having. We started discussing prism glasses to fix the double vision.

In March 2014, Cam was becoming increasingly irritable, having short-term memory problems and headaches. The symptoms were severe enough to do a brain scan early. Cam had a large tumor growing back in the surgical site from September 2013. The surgery was another total resection, however we knew that until we found the right drug or drugs, these tumors would continue to grow back. Even a total resection leaves microscopic cells behind. Also in March, the sequencing results came back showing one new drug as a good option. Catch was it was in adult clinical trials. Drugs have to be trialed in Adults before Pediatric Clinical Trials will even be written, let alone enacted. Campbell's neuro-surgeon applied for compassionate use of BKM120 (buparlisib). We knew the approval process would likely be several weeks. We needed to try something else in the meantime. We enrolled Campbell in a single agent study at MSK of a drug called perifosine. Again, it did not work... Cam needed a VP shunt to manage overall CSF absorption issues caused by the multiple surgeries and radiation treatments. The shunt was placed in April 2014.

May 2014, compassionate use approval comes through (thank you, God). Cam starts on buparlisib. It was well-tolerated, with minimal side effects for Campbell.

However, at the end of June 2014, buparlisb was shown to not be working. A tumor never before removed had grown significantly, causing slurred speech, mood alterations, and short-term memory problems again. The brain stem tumor was also growing. Even worse, it was growing into the brain stem, rendering it impossible to remove the entire thing. At our request, Campbell's neuro-surgeon removed one of the tumors, the one causing the most mood disturbances in her frontal lobe. He was able to get most of the tumor. A small piece was attached to a major blood vessel in the brain and had to be left untouched. We had a few more treatment options to choose from, including one that was being created based on Dr. Greenfield's gene sequencing.

We had a good family trip to Long Beach Island the week of the Fourth of July. Cam, Greg and Robin had a brief day trip up to Tufts Floating Hospital for Children to discuss the personalized multi-agent protocol Dr. Klement had created for Campbell. We went home from the beach with two plans to choose from. We opted for the plan we could enact faster - a two agent protocol created based on research at Sick Kids Hospital in Toronto. We hoped that this combo of azacitadine and Vorinostat would stall the growth or even cause the brain stem tumor to start to die, making it easier to remove or at least debulk surgically. We were keeping the Tufts plan in our back pocket since it would require alot of insurance hassle and timely appeals for costly oral medications not previously proven for ependymoma. This is one of the many problems with Childhood Cancers - there are few, and in the case of Ependymoma, no, proven drug treatments. Insurance companies will only approve a costly treatment if there is proven medical benefit. This is the catch 22 childhood cancer families often find themselves in. You have a cancer that there is no proven treatment for, so we need to get creative and guess based on what might be causing your cancerous growths, but insurance companies do not approve treatments based on these growth reasons. They approve drugs that have been proven effective in clinical trial.

By the end of July, Campbell's status had continued to deteriorate. She had stopped speaking, communicating solely by squeezing your hand or blinking her eye. One eye was permanently closed. She had stopped eating. She could not support the core of her body sitting or standing. She could not walk. She was sent home from MSK on hospice on July 26. Robin started sleeping with Cam at this point. We didn't want her to be alone or scared.

The next week was a whirlwind. The Power of Team Campbell came into play once again. Cam and the family got to meet Harry Styles and the other members of One Direction, with upgraded VIP treatment at their concert at Met Life Stadium on August 4. It was amazing! It was so incredible that Campbell even started eating again the next day, not much, but it was baby steps!

The plan was to start the next cycle of the two drug protocol on August 11, with her next set of scans on August 27. We started the next cycle with Cam starting to do a little better. As usual, she continued to amaze people. As the week progressed, Campbell's status deteriorated again. She had stopped eating and was barely squeezing hands in response to people. She would have moments of alertness, but slept nearly all day.

The morning of August 17, Campbell had her first seizure. It was terrifying. Before the seizure she couldn't move anymore; she couldn't talk. I was laying in the trundle bed next to her and heard funny sounds, almost likely gurgling coming from her. I was concerned the chemo was making her nauseas and she had vomited and was now choking on it. She was awake. Her eye was open, with a terrified look in it. I tried to open her mouth and move her onto her side. Her jaw was locked closed. I turned her on her side and started screaming for Greg. I didn't know what to do. I vaguely remembered the hospice nurse mentioning that Ativan (which we had for the mood disturbances) was good for seizures so we slowly got that into her mouth. We called hospice and decided to keep our chemo appointment at MSK. We went in for the last dose of azacitadine. We came home on a higher pain patch with the goal of just keeping Cam as comfortable as possible, and most importantly not scared. Campbell did not regain consciousness after the seizure on August 17. She passed in her sleep at 11:55 pm on August 21, exactly 5 years and 1 day after being diagnosed with Ependymoma of the Brain.

This is the worst update I've done yet. There was so much information to pack into one update, including the worst possible part of the story. Campbell Grace Hoyt has left an impression on this Earth that will far outlive her short beautiful life. She was laid to rest on August 26, 2014 at the age of 8. No child should die. There is a way to stop this madness. We need more funding, more research... but that is a post for a different day. Right now, I just needed to get the facts out there. Emotions and pleas and anecdotes will follow at a later date.

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

5FU, Miracles, and Awards

Where to even begin... First, I suppose we should try and update this blog more frequently. It's difficult because so many of you are on Facebook - we forget that not everyone is there!

Our seven week stay at St. Jude went as well as we could have hoped. Cam tolerated the new drug well, with some mild fatigue (nothing compared to when she was on thalidomide), and loss of appetite. Anyone who knows our little friend, knows she really can't afford to have no appetite. Thankfully, the doctors at St. Jude listened when I pushed about Campbell's weight. The problem we were having is that Cam has essentially been treated by four different neuro-oncology clinics in the past year, so no one single clinic had witnessed her weight loss. I am grateful that the folks at St. Jude listened to Mom. Cam was started on an appetite stimulant, in addition to drinking two pediasures per day and having a calorie goal of 1300 calories per day which she tracks on the Livestrong app on Mom's iPhone. It is amazing! She is actually EATING. We even had a deal if she got back to 21 kg, she could tape my happy dance and put it on Facebook. Oh, the things a mother will do for her child's well-being! Yes, she did both - gained the weight and embarassed her mother.

We had a few exciting events at St. Jude. It truly is an incredible place. The girls and Greg came to visit in the middle of our stay. We had a terrific time together, even if it was brief. Definitely included a trip to Waffle House and Rendezvous (Caroline is still asking for more ribs). The powers that be at ALSAC, the fundraising arm of St. Jude, asked Campbell to participate in a few photo shoots to be used for publicity and fundraising purposes. One of these involved a trip to NYC for a photo shoot with Marlo Thomas! Keep your eyes open this holiday season, you just may see Miss Cam smiling back at you when you walk into the mall! The best part about our trip to St. Jude was a GOOD SCAN for the first time since Cam's cancer came back in June 2011!!!! All tumors were stable, with one tumor actually significantly shrinking! AMAZING!!!

Cam is continuing on the same protocol from home, with the infusions administered by her team at Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center. Cam is now back to scanning every 12 weeks (or two cycles). Her next scans are 6/11 and 6/12. Ironically, the anniversary of the surgery to remove the first recurrence is on 6/13 - the day we will meet with the neuro-oncologist at St. Jude to get scan results. Another one of the many bizarre coincidences in Campbell's life!

Speaking of coincidences...I swear, if I were to try and explain all of them, it would take me DAYS! Suffice it to say that we witness God in our life daily. Campbell was selected by the Order of Malta for a pilgrimmage to Lourdes, France to bathe in the healing waters. Many, many prayers have been said, but I don't think any as strongly asking for Campbell to be the 68th miracle attributed to Lourdes. Greg and Cam returned home today, just in time for Campbell's 7th Birthday! I will ask Greg to write an entry about the trip. From what he and Cam have told me, it was incredible and life-altering.

Another coincidence to share - during Hurricane Sandy, right after Campbell's last brain surgery, we could not stay in our home because there was no heat (no electricity) and temperatures were dipping below freezing. Normally, we do not ask for a room at the Ronald McDonald House in NY because I feel those rooms should be reserved for those who canNOT commute to NYC. Greg does it daily for work, so Cam and I certainly can do it for doctor's appointments. However, the week after Cam's surgery, she had three days of appointments in the city. The tunnels were closed because of flooding. There were travel restrictions placed on the George Washington Bridge. Gas for cars was unavailable because the gas stations did not have power and therefore could not pull the gas up from their underground tanks... My point is, I felt it was time for us to ask for a room. We stayed at the RMH for the week, which was a blessing. During that time, Campbell was able to participate in piano lessons they offer once per week. Her eyes filled with joy and excitment. They sparkled! I was on a new mission. I wanted to find my baby a piano and piano lessons once things settled down. Fast forward to Christmas. I have accepted that a real piano is not in our budget. My mother buys a keyboard which is perfect for Cam. She loves it. I vow to look into using that keyboard for lessons. I can't help but believe that the mental stimulation that would go with playing the piano would be beneficial in some way. We finish radiation for the fourth time at the end of December, have a four week pause in January, complicated by several transfusions and stomach bug, and then head to St. Jude at the end of the month. Translation = no progress made on the keyboard lessons. Out of the blue, I get a Facebook message from an incredible woman whom until three years ago had no knowledge of Campbell, then she heard about Tara Gilvar's pie sale for Campbell. Since then, Grace has shown up in our life at the most bizarre moments. I swear she is an Angel on Earth. There is no other way to describe her presence in our life. In this out of the blue message, I believe it was late January or early February, she says she wants to give Campbell her piano. I am stunned; speechless (which does not happen often). I struggle to find a response. We chat about it a few times. Greg and I come to terms with accepting such a generous gift, putting our pride to the side for the benefit of Campbell. I should also add that Grace has a side-kick, Margaret, who just so happens to be a concert pianist and has offered to give Campbell lessons. See what I mean about coincidences? This stuff does not just happen. There's more to this story, and I won't even go into all of the details. We agree to accept the piano, find a spot in our new home. Grace and I set up a day for a delivery (which was donated by a person who happens to be a friend of Grace who happens to move pianos for a living and happens to have a son with a life-altering injury - see - again, there are too many coincidences). Sloan-Kettering calls the day before the delivery is scheduled (in the morning) to say they want Campbell there at 11:30 the next day for chemo. I had asked for a later appointment, with the piano delivery in mind (which was coming between 8 and 10). This was the best MSK could do. I had two choices - go on faith that it would work out or call Grace and reschedule with all of these amazing people who were doing something incredibly kind for my daughter. I went on faith. And it worked. The piano was here by 9am. Campbell was so excited she could not sit or stand still! Then Grace texts me to tell me that when she was moving the piano she found old papers from thirty years ago (this piano has it's own incredible history). The papers have the name Campbell on them. I know that Campbell is not an uncommon last name, but really? What are the odds? Again, coincidence? Nah. Grace says it's another sign. Lo and behold, Campbell is now the proud owner of a beautiful piano and is beginning lessons next week! All thanks to the incredible generosity of two amazing women who barely even know my daughter! They are Angels here to help my Cam. How else can you explain it?

Now for the award part, in another bizarre twist, my high school honored me with the Distinguished Alumni Award last week for my work raising awareness of childhood cancer. I still don't understand how having a big mouth gets me an award, but I'll take it! I am so honored and flattered. I was speechless when I heard about it (again, speechless). And then I realized I would have to give a speech. I changed majors in college to AVOID taking public speaking. That's how terrified I am of it. It's kind of funny actually. I was being given an award for basically having a big mouth and yet I didn't want to talk to all of those people at the same time! I tettered back and forth right up until four days before leaving for NH on whether or not we would be going. Then I saw a post on Facebook. It listed a few childhood cancer statistics. I can't find it now, of course. But at the bottom it said in a larger font and in bold print - YOU ARE NOW AWARE. GO SPREAD THE KNOWLEDGE. Another sign. I knew I had to give the speech at my high school. It was my opportunity to say something about childhood cancer to hundreds of people all in one shot. If each of those people tell one person and so on... it's the ripple effect. So we went. I saw old teachers, even my old chemistry teacher whom I have told current doctors about. I've said he would shake his head in amazment if he could hear me talk now - all the scientific mumbo-jumbo. Yep I used the word mumbo-jumbo to describe science.

I saw fellow classmates, including a dear friend who presented me with the award. I saw my former high school advisor, who moved away from NH years and years ago. My mother had even commented to me that the only thing that would make this award better is if Ms. Cass were there - lo and behold, she was! Look at that, another coincidence! She was there to present my classmate with the Alumni Service Award, which just so happened to be the same year and the same awards cermony I was attending! I was terrified when I stood up. I had practiced my speech a dozen or so times. The first time, I was crying by the end and I was the only one in the house. Not a good sign. I was wearing a ring Campbell had given me from the Treasure Box at Sloan-Kettering that week and had her picture on the podium next to my speech. I had told myself if Campbell Grace can be brave for all of the scary, horrible things she goes through, I can give be brave and give this quick 4 minute speech. I owed it to her. I spoke. I got a standing ovation :-). It was such an adrenaline rush once it was over. I must say that I actually loved getting through to that many people! We toured the much expanded campus (it has after all been over twenty years since I was last there) after lunch. I was stopped seven or eight times by different age students, all telling me some facsimile of "good speech". These KIDS listened. Wow. These kids are the kinds of kids who make change happen. And change is what the childhood cancer world needs.

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

On January 27, we headed to St. Jude in Memphis, TN. We had a whirlwind week of appointments in preparation for starting the new trial at St. Jude.
Cam's hemoglobin continues to struggle to come back up to normal. Radiation and the adjuvant chemotherapy (oral etoposide) used during radiation really beat up her bone marrow, impairing its ability to generate new blood cells. We hope this side effect of the therapies used in December will subside soon; especially since the new chemotherapy is likely to have a similar effect.
Cam had her first infusion of 5FU last Thursday. It was rather uneventful, being only a 5 minute push of the drug. However, it requires timed blood draws for 2 1/2 hours after the initial push. They are checking on levels of the drug in Campbell's blood (this is a normal procedure). The only noticeable side effect has been fatigue. Our little friend naps daily, sometimes for 2 hours or more, sometimes a quick 20 minute cat-nap in the car is enought. About the car, we need to give a big shout-out to old family friends, the Forsees, for generously loaning us one of their cars during our stay in Memphis! This has been a huge blessing! Our previous 6-week stints away from home for treatment were all in Boston, with a great mass transit system, walking distance to Whole Foods and many delicious healthy restaurants. Unfortunately, the area around St. Jude is not the same as the area around Mass General. There is really nothing within walking distance. Thus, the car has become a must. If we were not so blessed, I certainly would have been renting one!
Cam and I went to the zoo yesterday. We had a blast. I'll see if I can get pictures from my phone onto here...
Assuming Cam's counts are okay tomorrow, she will have infustion 2/4 for this cycle. Fingers, toes, arms, legs are all crossed for good numbers!
This evening, I'd like to take a moment and ask you all to pray for a friend of ours, Aaron Bell. He is a fellow ependymoma patient who has been fighting the same beast as Cam for the past 4 years. Just yesterday, he and his family learned there is nothing more the doctors can do for him. The scary thing is, he had a good scan just 3 short months ago. Then in mid January he started to feel funny on the side of his face. Sure enough, an MRI showed his tumor was back. Since then, in only 3 weeks while on a new chemotherapy at St. Jude (not the same one as Cam, but one that shows promise), his tumor exploded. Aaron and his family need prayers and good thoughts.
Life is precious. It is a gift. Please remember to treat it that way. Be kind to everyone. You never know what they are going through. You never know when your life could change.

Thursday, January 24, 2013

I apologize for not updating the blog in several busy months! First, October 18th's scan was not mixed. On a good note, 5 areas were stable, one was no longer visible at all (yay!). On a bad note, the two largest brain tumors found last summer had bob grown significantly. Cam was taken off the CERN trial of Avastin and Lapatinib immediately. Surgery was scheduled for the following week and next steps were discussed. The timing was good for Cam. It turned out that the semi-annual CERN member's conference was that weekend! Cam's neuro-oncologist at Memorial-Sloan Kettering Cancer Center attended the conference, bringing Cam's scans with her. The board held a multi-institutional tumor board meeting on Campbell's case! We had dozens of the best Ependymoma minds in the country discussing Campbell! It was universally recommended to remove the largest brain tumor, which had doubled in size in 6 weeks. It was in the top left side of her brain, near the speech center and putting her at increased risk for seizures. It was also universally recommended to treat her brain with additional radiation (IMRT this time, not protons like done previously), in conjunction with etoposide (oral chemotherapy) as a stabilizer during radiation and followed by a new chemotherapy after radiation. So, we had a plan. Surgery was a success. Dr. Jeff Greenfield of Weill-Cornell/MSKCC was able to remove the entire tumor. Cam suffered no real side effects from the surgery or recovery. Her speech actually seemed to improve, indicating perhaps she had been experiencing symptoms and no one realized it. Campbell finished 30 rounds of cranial radiation (to everywhere except the area irradiated the first time three years ago) on 12/28. Cam ROCKED it, doing radiation for the first time without anesthesia! This was HUGE! You may not remember, but Cam has issues with anesthesia, especially the drug of choice for radiation and MRIs, which is protocol. Campbell calls it the angry medicine. It makes her psychotic! So, being able to do radiation without anesthesia was a blessing. Cam experienced some fatigue from radiation, although was able to go to school for at least a half-day nearly every day during treatment! The biggest side effect was hair-loss in all areas of her head receiving radiation. Basically she has a little patch left on the top rear of her head. Oh, well. She's a trooper. Nothing phases her. She just took out her extensive hat collection from last year! The only other complication since December is a low hemoglobin, requiring 5 transfusions between 12/13 and 1/13. This is likely a combination of the etoposide (which was stopped, as planned, on 12/26) and the effects of radiation on the body's bone marrow. After rocking radiation without anesthesia, our friend wanted to try her MRIs awake! MSKCC installed MRI movie goggles last month. These goggles are MRI safe and are similar in look to an old-school view-finder. Because Cam's scans take close to 2 hours, they are scheduled on two different days when done awake. Cam had her brain scan yesterday. No surprise - she rocked it! Wasn't phased or fidgeting at all! I was able to stay in the room with her, holding her foot the whole time. Right now, Greg is in with her for her spine scan. We will get the results later today. In addition, Cam had labs drawn this morning. We will see if she needs another transfusion in a few minutes. The plan for chemotherapy after radiation is a new clinical trial only available at St. Jude. They are using an old drug called 5FU to treat recurrent Ependymoma. The first cycle is done at St. Jude in Memphis and lasts for 6 weeks. After that, if Campbell is responding, subsequent cycles can be done at your home institution. This drug has had promising results in the lab and a few patients so far. It is nothing like anything else Cam has been on, so we are hopeful this is The One. I know I have missed something! Sorry! I promise, now that I know I can update the blog from Cam's iPad, I will do it more frequently. Starting with today's results! One last thing: Our dear friend, Sandy Whelan, Watching Hills High women's basketball coach, and her Lady Warriors are hosting Summit High School in a GOLD GAME this Friday at 7pm at Watchung Hills. They are raising awareness of childhood cancer and funds for the Campbell Hoyt Medical Trust. If you are in the area, come show your support! Campbell will be there helping Coach Whelan on the bench!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Big Day Tomorrow!

Tomorrow, Cam goes in for her first MRI since she started this new clinical trial. Please say an extra prayer for her tonight for a nice STABLE scan. If you don't pray, just lift up a positive thought for her. This is a VERY important scan...

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Team Campbell Merchandise

Team Campbell Hats and T-shirts are now available.
Item

Monday, August 13, 2012

ANOTHER bump in the road...

Unfortunately, Campbells scan last week did not show the improvement we were hoping for.  One of the spots that was on the left side of her brain after the May scan - and that was supposed to be being treated with the Sutent that she has been taking - has grown significantly over the past 2 months.  In addition, she has two new tumors growing on the right side of her brain now as well as some growth on one of the tumors in her spine. 

SO...now we will be meeting with the doctors at Sloan Kettering in NYC to get her started on the CERN trial that was being considered as of our last post.  We hope and pray that this is going to be the right combination of drugs to stop these tumors from growing.  Robin has also contacted the folks at St Jude's to talk about Cam's case and see if they can weigh in with their opinion on what the best chance for her is.  As it stands right now, surgery is not an option as there are several locations that we are dealing with.  Radiation again is not something that Dana Farber is interested in suggesting due to the damage that could be caused as a result of treating this area of Cambells brain.  St Jude's has not ruled this out but would look to do conformal radiation as opposed to proton's again.  Luckily (?), this means that we have a few more options available to us.

For now, we will continue to enjoy the wonderful, strong, amazing girl that she continues to be.  The doctors continue to be amazed by her clinical exam as compared to her scan results.  We now are back to watching for potential side effects of the tumor and hope that we don't see any as they are not very pleasant to think about (seizures, back/leg pain, speech issues, etc).

I ask that you all say another prayer for Cam, her sisters, and her doctors as we take another turn in this journey.

With Love,

Greg, Robin, Caitlin, Caroline and Campbell

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Another bump in the road

Unfortunately, Cam has hit another bump in her road to recovery.  On her first post-radiation scan on May 2nd, the doctors found 2 new tumors on the left side of her brain as well as some additional areas of concern at the top of her brain. 

Since that time, we have been feverishly working to find out the right treatment plan for her to follow.  No one is too eager to radiate the rest of her head.  The risks associated with that are far to severe according to the neuro-oncologists.  Originally, we were told that she was not eligible for the two clinical trials that would have been good for her.  So, we proceeded to look for the right drug to stop the growth of these new tumors.

Shortly after coming to a decision on one drug (and I mean SHORTLY - like 20 minutes) we received new information from the doctors that she actually IS eligible for not one, but BOTH of the clinical trials that we were previously told she could not participate in. 

Trial 1 is being run at Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center in NYC and is developed by CERN (Collaborative Ependymoma Research Network).  It involves 2 drugs - Avastin and Lopatnib).  Cam would need to get an IV infusion of the Avastin and be seen multiple times per week.

Trial 2 would be handled out of our local hospital by the oncology team that originally cared for Cam and would involve only 1 drug (Sutent). 

Yesterday, Robin spent the majority of the day with Campbell at the local hospital for blood work, EKG, ECG, more blood work in preparation to start Trial 2.  Just to further complicate things, the hospital has to run participation in any clinical trials through their legal team as well as their Internal Review Board.  This information was given to them a week ago so that we could make this happen.  In typical fashion, the IRB did NOT approve it yesterday (the doctor that needed to wasn't available...must have had a tee time).  Which means, Cam will have to have ANOTHER MRI (it needs to have occurred no more than 2 weeks before starting the trial which would have been yesterday).  UGH!!!!!

Today, we will meet with the doctors at Sloan to discuss trial 1 further. 

We have also learned participation in Trial 1 would exclude her from participating in Trial 2 later (because of the drugs being taken, apparently).  So, while it looks like they are both options, this may be the deciding factor.  The doctors at both Dana Farber (Boston) and at the Valerie Center (home) are equally happy with whichever one WE choose (isn't this why we pay THEM?).  All things being equal, trial 2 would be easier for us to manage and for Cam (it is oral as opposed to a two drug infusion).

For now, Cam has really not shown any symptoms from the 2 new tumors in her head.  The tumors in her spine that have already been treated are stable (which in her world is just as good as gone) - which is really good news.  We will keep you all posted as we travel down yet another new path for Cam. 

With Love,

Greg, Robin, Caitlin, Caroline & Campbell

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Human Kindness and Generosity

Alot has happened since our last post on 2/22... sorry for the delay!  Greg and I forget that not everyone is on Facebook...

Campbell finished up the third, and last ever, round of proton beam radiation therapy in Boston on 3/20.  I say the last, because it truly is the last.  She cannot have any more radiation to her brain or spine.  This is frightening for us.  Radiation is the best treatment option for Ependymoma.  This means if it comes back again, Campbell cannot have the best treatment...  We hope and pray that this will never happen!

We came home from Boston on the 20th.  Cam had a restful week at home, waiting for clearance to return to school.  Well, antsy really.  Cam REALLY wanted to go back to school and was not very happy about waiting any longer!  She was cleared on the 3/26 and returned to an awesome welcoming by her class on 3/27.  They greeted her in the hallway with hand-made party-hats and signs reading "Welcome Back" and "We missed you".  It was touching and amazing.  Campbell was all smiles :-).

The last few weeks have been fairly normal (a nice change for us).  We've slowly gotten back into the routine of our normal life.  Of course, this includes doctor's visits.  Cam needed another transfusion while the girls were off from school for Spring Break.  This was the fourth transfusion since December!  The combination of chemotherapy and radiation to the spine have done a number on her bone marrow.  The doctor's have warned us that this will probably be the norm for Cam while on chemo, although hopefully the frequency will start to lessen.  Between 2/16 and 4/2, Campbell had three transfusions!  The effects of the radiation will weaken the further out we get from completion. We are optimistic that her bone marrow will start producing new healthy red blood cells soon.

Greg and I have been struggling with learning the ins and outs of our new insurance policy.  (His employer changed providers as of January 1).  As you can imagine, for someone with the extraordinary circumstances like Campbell, new insurance is daunting.  We've recently learned that all was not as it originally seemed and our co-pays have skyrocketed.  Cam's meds, which previously cost approximately $300 per month, are now $500.  Clinic visits, previously $25 each, are now $50 each.  It seems small, but Campbell goes to Clinic at least every three weeks, sometimes as often as 4 or 5 times per month!  Her MRIs, which occur at least every 3 months, sometimes more frequently, were previously $25 per visit.  They are now $1600 each!!!  Ouch!  And this is a co-pay.  They ARE covered.  The actual cost billed by the hospital for one of Campbell's full brain and spine MRIs averages $25,000.  Can you imagine if we didn't have insurance???  Oh, that is enough to make my heart skip a beat!

With all of these increased costs in mind, several local groups have hosted quite a few fundraisers for Campbell.  We would like to take this opportunity to express our deepest gratitude to the Watchung Hills Lady Warriors Basketball team for hosting a "Gold Game" against Bernards High.  The teams sported gold laces, sold gold t-shirts and auctioned off many incredible items, all to raise awareness for the epidemic known as Childhood Cancer and contribute to Campbell's medical trust.

Heartworks, a local grass-roots non-profit organization whose focus is on acts of kindness, has been incredible.  They truly leave me speechless (which if you know me, is difficult to do) each time I try to describe the difference they have made in our lives.  They provide emotional support, offer prayers for healing for our sweet Cam, send reminders to Caitlin and Caroline that they are just as important as Campbell, fed Greg and the girls while Campbell and I were in Boston, drop off random gift cards for a little treat at Starbucks, for a girls' outing to get our nails done, pizza for dinner on Fridays during Lent.  In addition to these many "little" things, these amazing women hosted a pie fundraiser last fall and a Valentine's pop sale in February,  both benefitting Cam's medical trust. 

An incredible group of local women, who have labeled themselves the "Sister of the Bar" (and no, not THAT kind of bar :-) - they exericse together at the Bar Method in Bernardsville), sold awesome t-shirts during the holidays to benefit Cam.  They have now teamed up with Atelier Salon & Spa in Basking Ridge to host a "Cuts for Campbell" benefit on Sunday, April 29th.  The Salon will be open from 10-4, with all services available and all proceeds from services that day going to Campbell's medical trust.  If you are interested in making an appointment, contact the Salon directly at 908-766-4630

Lastly, Campbell's fans have moved beyond the Bernardsville/Basking Ridge area.  The bowling team from JP Stevens High School in Edison, NJ, who have never met Campbell, hosted a fundraiser on February 28th.  Their coach is a neighbor and friend of Campbell's grandparents in Dayton, NJ.  Unbelieveable.  The kindness of people is astounding.  These are kids who have no personal connection to Campbell.  There event is called GAGA, for Give a Gift Away.  The gift they gave away that day has already made an impact on Campbell's life.

Even bigger than simply helping Campbell, all of these events have raised awareness for a subject very close to our hearts.  Childhood Cancer.  Before Campbell was diagnosed, I would turn away from the St. Jude's commercials, the bald children were too sad to look at.  I am embarassed to admit my shameful behavior.  Campbell's diagnosis opened my eyes, Greg's eyes, Caitlin and Caroline's eyes... the list goes on.  I was disturbed when I starting researching about cures.  There is very little federal money spent on Childhood Cancer research.  Even worse, many organizations who I instantly thought would be a good avenue for research for kids like Cam, shocked me when I learned they spend $.01 of every dollar raised on kid's research.  That's it.  The kids are our future.

I have become very vocal of my disdain for these organizations and praising organizations like St. Baldrick's, Alex's Lemonade Stand, Cookies for Kids' Cancer, CureSearch and last, but certainly not least, the CERN Foundation.  The CERN Foundation is the one organization that will best be able to help Campbell, and the other 6% of childhood cancer patients diagnosed with Ependymoma.  Their sole focus is researching a cure for Ependymoma.  In fact, today, April 19th, 2012, is the first ever Ependymoma Awareness Day.  In celebration of today, I ask all of you to continue to raise awareness.  Tell Campbell's story, including the name of her cancer - Anaplastic Ependymoma - to one new person.  It is through awareness that funding will be raised and a cure will be found.

With love, gratitude and humility,
Robin

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Update - 2/22

Hello out there! 

A lot has happened since our last post - not the least of which is that Cam FINALLY got over her GI issues on day 28!

After a great deal of debate between Robin and I and the doctors between each other - we decided to proceed with another 28 rounds of radiation treatment for the tumor growing on Cam's spine.  What it ultimately boiled down to was we were not willing to wait for this thing to grow and start causing her to be in the same amount of pain as she was over the summer last year.  So we are going to throw everything we got at this and hope and pray for the best outcome possible (and given her response the last two tumors we have reason to be cautiously optimistic).

So Cam started another 6 weeks of radiation on February 9th up in Boston.  Unfortunately, that means another 7 weeks of our family being apart, but what can you do?  During her planning MRI (pre-radiation), the scan did show that the tumor had grown very slightly - which confirms our decision to move forward with radiation. 

She is already through 8 treatments (and as I type this, getting ready for #9).  She also remains on the chemotherapy that she has been taking since October.  She continues to amaze us more and more every day with her bravery and strength.

Her sisters were and I were able to visit over President's Day Weekend - which was a nice change of pace for everyone. 

Thanks for your continued thoughts and prayers!

With Love,

Greg, Robin, Caitlin, Caroline & Campbell

Monday, January 23, 2012

It's been a while...

I just looked and realized that it has been a while since we last updated those interested (and not on Facebook) on Campbell.

After her scan in December showed some growth of the tumor in her spine, they scheduled and performed another MRI on January 10th.  There hope was that the tumor would show some response to the chemotherapy regimen that she has been on for some time.  The scan went well and showed that the tumor was stable and had NOT grown in the 6 weeks.

We are still debating what the next steps are for her.  In the meantime, Cam continues to be her happy self and is tolerating the chemo well.  Her hair, is almost completely gone which still does not bother her.  Unfortunately, she caught a stomach bug around New Year and has not been able to kick it.  Today is day 25 of her GI issues so we have an appointment scheduled with a gastroenterologist on Wednesday morning to see what else might be going on.  Hopefully, they can find some relief for her and she can make it back to school soon. 

We'll keep you posted!

With Love,

Greg, Robin, Caitlin Caroline & Cam

Thursday, December 8, 2011

My name is not Cancer. It is Cam.

My name is not cancer. Call me by my name. Tell me I'm beautiful. Ask me what i want to be when I grow up. Believe that I will. Look me in my eyes and see my strength. Talk to me and see how smart I am. I have big plans. Cancer will not define me. Please don't let it change the way you see me. Simply love me and watch me win. 

I found this paragraph on a fellow pediatric cancer mom's Facebook page this evening.  This was shortly after reading that another child, diagnosed with same type of cancer as Campbell, lost his five year battle today.  My heart rips everytime I hear this.  We so badly need a cure.  No child should have to go through this.

Last Wednesday we learned that Campbell's latest tumor, the third on her spine since June, has continued to grow, even while on the five drug chemotherapy protocol.  However, the growth seems to have slowed slightly.  Because of this, Cam's team has decided not to change anything right now and to scan her again 6 weeks later (putting us at January 11th).  This tumor is approximately 1 cm and not causing any symptoms.  As a reminder, it has not been treated with radiation yet.  We are hoping the medications will continue to work and show stalled growth, or better yet, shrinking of the tumor in January.  If not, then the team will discuss options.  The team is comprised of a team of neuro-oncologists, neurologists, neuro-surgeons and radiaton oncologists.  The options would most likely be surgery to remove as much of the tumor as possible, radiation to the rest of Cam's spine all the way up to the brain stem, and changing the chemo-therapy regimen Cam is on.  Or perhaps a combination of these choices.  For now, we bask in Cam's silliness and happiness.

This Monday, Campbell had her regular three week lab draw.  We were pleased that her ANC had risen back to acceptable levels (last week it was 650 - which is not so good) at 1250.  However, her anemia continues to get worse, with a hemoglobin of 6.5 (normal is 11 or higher).  Anything lower than 7 calls for a transfusion.  So, Cam and I headed into the Valerie Fund clinic yesterday for a few hours for Cam to get blood that had been so kindly and generously donated by a volunteer many weeks ago, having no knowledge of Campbell.  Yet again, the kindness of humanity struck me yesterday.  If not for blood donors, kids, any patients, like my Cam would be in bad shape.

Campbell's cheeks "pinked up" within an hour of beginning the transfusion.  We are hopeful that many of the neurologic type symptoms Campbell has been exhibiting lately are in fact related to the anemia, not the Thalidomide (one of the drugs she is on to fight tumor growth).  The doctor's will re-evaluate Campbell's neuro-symptoms next week and perhaps increase the Thalidomide dose as originally planned.  We hope this is possible since this drug is a key player in the protocol Campbell is on.

For today, Cam stayed home with me so I could monitor her for allergic reaction to the transfusion.  I am happy to say that none occured and she will be headed back to school tomorrow!

Thanks for all your prayers and support!
xoxo,
Robin

Monday, November 7, 2011

Positive thinking

We have spent the past few weeks talking to Campbell about the fact that her hair may fall out and trying to prepare her for it. We were very concerned as it had started thinning and, despite the "keep your hair" voodoo dances we have been doing, we wanted to make sure she we able to answer questions from her friends should the time come. Sometimes even we forget how strong this kid is. When I told her that her hair might fall out her comment was not sadness but ony a question - " Nanny will make me some hats right?". I think we could all take some lessons in her lack of vanity and big picture outlook.

Then last week, as she continued to thin on her head, I got the FIRST complaint from her in the past two years..."Daddy, if I lose all my hair, I won't be beautiful anymore...". Once she wa done with her tap dance on my heart out, I explained to her that it was her smile and HER that made her beautiful. I couldn't help but wonder if that was her or us talking? She has always had beautiful curls and both Robin and I have both commented on them over the years. So was she concerned that we wouldn't think so or is SHE concerned about her own appearance? Maybe a little bit of both is what I am accepting now...

Now, after spending the past week picking up more an more hair off the ground and out of the bathtub and her pillow and her brush and me and the couch and the kitchen....you get the point...we have passed the what if point and are faced with the reality that she will soon BR wearing hats as a staple of her wardrobe and will start looking like a "cancer patient". But, as we sat in church yesterday I couldn't help but think of how fortunate we are to be here with her. That she keeps smiling and feels great. And we can hope that while we watch, the chemo drugs are killing the cancer that is living in her spine. We can occasionally allow outselves to look forward to the days ahead of her when this will just be an unfortunate chapter in her life. We have this luxury while so many children and parents don't. Many that we know aren't as fortunate. They are hoping to get to the next holiday or the next birthday or even just tomorrow. Despite everything thus far, I still feel that we are fortunate to pick up her hair and laugh WITH her as she fights the fight of her life.

So Cam will enjoy her hats and start her collection and maybe inspire other kids with her strength and positive spirit like she inspires us every day. I'm thinking a fez may be a nice change of pace on Thanksgiving...

With Love,

Greg, Robin, Caitlin, Caroline and Campbell

Friday, October 21, 2011

The Waiting Place

Greg was reading Oh the Places You'll Go by Dr. Seuss to Cam the other night.  As I listened, he got to the pages about the Waiting Place.  It made me think about how Cam has been in the Waiting Place since the day she was conceived.  She has never been an easy child.  But then again, nothing worthwhile ever is.  She was very carefully planned and constructed with medical help, including antibiotics for Mom and 8 months, yes that's right, of bedrest.  And yet, against the odds then, she thrived.  Not just survived, but truly thrived.  She was born two weeks early at 9 lbs 15 oz.  Yep.  My little trouble-maker started defying the odds even before she was born.

Last week we received the unfortunate news that Campbell has grown another tumor on her spine, 4 vertebrae above the radiation field from this summer.  It is fairly small, measuring 1 cm.  Without a doubt, it is not visible on the July scan.  There is some debate whether or not it is visible on the June scan.  Seems odd, I know.  What the heck?  Is this thing playing hide and seek?  MRIs, especially of the spine, are very subjective.  It all depends on how the images are sliced.  It is quite possible that in hindsight the doctors, knowing now that something is there, might be able to "kind of" see the beginnings of this something on images from two scans ago.

That being said, all parties have been consulted and everyone agrees to stay the course and continue with the 5 drug anti-angiogenic protocol Campbell is on.  All doctors say that the drugs have not had enough time to work to switch them, yet.  Neuro-surgery feels the small size of the tumor plus the lack of symptoms does not warrant the risk associated with yet another surgery on Campbell's spine.  So, no surgery, at least for now.  Neuro-oncology and Radiation oncology want to give the drugs more time to work.  Everyone has agreed to an MRI sooner rather than later.  The normal time frame would be to scan in another three months.  Cam's has been scheduled for six weeks.  If in six weeks the tumor is not showing a response to the medication (either by remaining stable or growing), then we go back into discussions.  The choices would be to continue on the 5-drug (out of the question if it has grown, a possibility if it has stayed the same), switch chemotherapies to something stronger (although with many more side effects), surgical removal of the tumor, and/or radiation to the rest of her spine plus the balance of her lower brain (not previously irradiated).

Obviously, we did NOT want to hear of new tumor growth.  However, her brain continues to show No Evidence of Disease.  Her spine, below this pesky new tumor, looks good.  The original tumor field from June is clean and the additional spot found in July (never removed) is showing signs of tumor death (awesome).  These are all very good things to hear.  We try very hard to hold onto these good things and not think too much about this new growth.

In the meantime, Cam's appointments last week all went well.  The neuro-opthalmologist said her vision remains perfect continuing to show no side-effects from the cranial radiation Cam received two years ago.  The neurologist was please with her neuro functions.  The endocrinologist was also pleased. So much so that we don't need to see her until next summer.  All good news.

Cam continues to love school.  She is such a happy child.  Maybe because she always gets her own way ;-)  She is taking a ballet/tap class on Friday afternoons.  At first I thought Friday afternoon would be too much for her, that she would be exhausted from the school week.  She proves me wrong every week with excitement and energy for dance class!  I have never been happier to be wrong (which is very much unlike me).

Off to get my little dancer from school!  Sending love to you all from the Waiting Place on the Island of Denial!

xoxo
Robin

Monday, October 10, 2011

As much as I like boobs....

I hope that got your attention...  I don't say this to minimize the importance of finding a cure for breast cancer, I just wish that pediatric cancer got the same press.  September is pediatric cancer awareness month and I didn't see any sports teams wearing gold socks in honor of these kids that look up to and admire them.  I am not naive enough to not see that people don't want to talk about kids getting sick, but COME ON!!!

Anyway....

Cam has been tolerating the chemotherapy regimen very well and continues to amaze us. She takes pills (not all very small) every day (multiple times a day) without complaint. Her hair has started to thin but not noticeably to anyone that doesn't see her every day. Her attitude is inspiring. She has enjoyed school and has only missed a day so far (she had a cold). She has gone every week thus far for blood work and has really been a trooper. 

This week Robin and Campbell go back to Boston for Cam's first follow up scan since she finished radiation treatment.  She also will see the endocrinologist, the neuro-oncologist, optometrist and a boat-load of other people that are much smarter than I am.  We are hoping that they come back with good news regarding the spots that were still on her spine - that they are either gone or have not grown any more.  Along with that, we obviously are hoping that the MRI of her brain continues to show No Evidence of Disease (NED).

We have been so fortunate enough to have so many people that care about our family and girls. Heartworks continues to amaze us with their generosity and random acts of kindness. Our friends and family are there when we need to yell, cry, drink or just have a "normal" evening. It helps more than we can express to you.

 Please take a moment to say a prayer to whoever you pray to that we get the news that she needs.

With Love,

Greg, Robin, Caitlin, Caroline and Campbell

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

September is Childhood Cancer Awareness Month

It's been awhile (over a month, and very busy month at that!) since our last update.  I apologize!  Campbell kept me busy in Boston.  Let's just say she does not like Propofol very much.  That is an understatement.  It has now been added to an "allergy" list.  It makes her crazy.  Literally, Linda Blair from The Exorcist crazy.  The anesthesia team at MGH finally came up with a plan that involved versaid and propofol that gave me my sweet Cam upon waking from anesthesia.  Much better than the crazy Cam who was beating Mommy up daily.  I'm not kidding!  I have witnesses!  Ask any of our friends from Christopher's Haven!

So, we spent time bonding with other pediatric cancer families during our time in Boston, yet again forming bonds that I know will stay tight (just as they have with Tara and Jen from last time around).  There is something to be said for a shared experience like this.  It's a bond like no other.  As bizarre as it is to say, I am glad for the opportunity to have met all of these amazing women.  All mother's.  All gaining strength from each other, in different ways, whether that be a sounding board, a wine fairy or a chef.  It was wonderful.  I am so grateful to Christopher's Haven for not only providing us with an economical apartment for our time in Boston, but even more so for the opportunity to spend time in the momcologist dorm.  I truly do miss our spontaneous sit on the floor in the hallway drinking wine telling stories sessions.

That being said, I am glad to be home.  Cam rang the bell on 9/9, with a crowd of cheering families watching.  Friends from Christopher's Haven even came back over to the Proton Center to watch and cheer AFTER their appointments for the day!  Wow!  I cleaned the apartment and loaded the car while Cam hung out with Hannah one last time.  Even a 5-year old understands the strange situation we are in - she was crying as we left the apartment because she didn't want to leave and yet two seconds later she was crying because she wanted Daddy.  I still haven't figured out how to upload pictures from my phone to the blog.  I'll see if I can do that later.  The car was PACKED.  There was barely room for Campbell!

Cam started Kindergarten on 9/12 AND the 5-drug anti-angiogenic Dana Farber protocol.  All of the medication is taken orally, actually in pill form.  Have I mentioned before that my 5 year old rocks?  She can take PILLS!  She is amazing.  She can tell you not only the names of her meds, but she can identify them by appearance (actually rather sick).  So far, she is doing very well.  She has had clinic visits (to the oncologist here at home in NJ) each Tuesday.  They are pleased with how she looks and her labs are good.  Until they tell us otherwise, Cam can continue to go to school and dance classes, and pretty much be a normal 5 year old little girl.

This post is not nearly as eloquent as my last few.  It's hard to be eloquent when you have to update everyone on over a month's worth of activity!

I do want to say, thank you for your support.  And, I'd like to ask for one thing, before the month ends, could you please share Campbell's story with one new person?  September is Childhood Cancer Awareness Month.  If each of you tell one new person my sweet child's story, that is many more people thinking about childhood cancer, this increased awareness leads to increased funding for research which WILL someday find a CURE.

xoxo,
Robin

Thursday, August 18, 2011

The bell

Yesterday I witnessed a fellow ependy child ring the bell at MGH.  A child whose mother I have "known" virtually for a little over a year.  We are both part of an online/email support group for parents of children diagnosed with Ependymoma.

It was a bittersweet moment, full of pride, anticipation, excitement and yet overshadowed by fear.  At least in the confines of daily radiation, our children are being watched closely.  As parents, we take comfort believing that if something were amiss, these trained professionals would catch it before we would.  However, without the dreaded MRI, no one can say for certain that there is nothing growing in our child's body that shouldn't be there.  Unless your child has become symptomatic, which as parents we would certainly notice before medical staff, there would be no cause for suspicion.  And yet, even without the MRI as evidence, we breath a little easier knowing that smarter people are closely observing our children each day while here.

Once you ring that bell, it's another story.  The weight transfers almost immediately back onto the already sagging shoulders of Mom and Dad.  The knot in our stomach grows tighter and tighter as we get further and further from the watchful eyes of the medical staff.  I thought I was ambivalent about Cam's bell ringing in a few weeks.  That was until I watched Stephanie yesterday. 

Stephanie is an amazing, sweet, incredibly bright and VERY brave 6 year old girl.  She is the one I mentioned on Facebook a few weeks ago that did all of her radiation treatments without anesthesia.  She then taught another 6 year old girl to do the very same thing.  Wow.  They are just awe-inspring.

As I watched Stephanie, my eyes filled with tears, as they did nearly two years ago when I watched our buddy Jaxson ring the bell - the first pediatric bell ringing I witnessed - and as they did at my own child's first bell ringing.  For weeks, I just have not felt this same way.  Perhaps it's fear getting the best of me; perhaps wanting to stay on my own little Island of Denial; perhaps it's pessimism.  Last time, the bell ringing seemed like closure.  It was the end of a very ugly Chapter in our life.  This time, we are still in the middle of it and will be for many more months.  I know that radiation is probably the easiest time Campbell will have for the next year.  Maybe that's why I don't feel the hope the bell ringing promised me last time.  Maybe I think it lied.

Even with the lies, I will continue to pray for good news.  I can't NOT pray for good news.  That would be defeatist.

Stephanie is also a "odd" Ependymoma case.  Odd in that her tumor decided to grow in an unusal location, much like my Cam's.  Stephie's grew on the top of head, and decided to come back twice in that area.  Cam's first one was in the typical Ependymoma location (Posterior Fossa/4th ventricle - at the lower back of the brain), and her recurrence moved to her spine.  Ependymoma's favor the Posterior Fossa and if they come back, they usually do so in the original location.  In the last few weeks, I've often talked about Cam and Stephie being the "oddballs" who just had to be different.  Tonight I pray that they will continue to be different, that they will defy the odds; that their Cancer does not come back again; that we will see each other each year back in Boston for the annual check-up with Radiation Oncology.  It was a blessing to meet Stephanie, her sister and her mother.  Her mother who was a rock and made their 8 week stay in Boston a little vacation with pit-stops at MGH each day.  Theresa inspires me.

I am pouring a glass of wine right now, and toasting Stephie and her family.  Here's to many, many, many years of NED scans!

Thursday, August 11, 2011

From Robin's Perspective

So, for nearly two years now, I've let other people - Mike Chidsey, Chris West, my brother-in-law Mark and, for the longest time now, Greg tell the stories on this blog. Tonight, for whatever reason, I decided it was time for me to chime in.
Today was Cam's 8th radiation treatment back at MGH. 20 more to go. We've been away from "the girlies" for 11 days now and it is killing me. Greg has been gone for 7 days. I truly feel like I am here, with Campbell, but my heart is torn in two. I know that I must focus on Cam and entertaining her, so that this ordeal is not as "boring" for her, but so often throughout the day I miss my other girls. I miss nagging at Caroline and smiling knowingly at Caitlin (who is a mini-me) since I can read her mind. I miss hearing Campbell calling Caroline to play Bahbies (and yes, I mis-spelled that on purpose. The one seemingly permanent souvenir of Cam's Cancer treatment in Boston is the Boston way of saying Barbies :-) I'll take it. It's kinda cute.) I miss telling Caitlin to clean up her room, doing laundry, muttering under my breath as I pick up yet another dirty towel on the bathroom floor, writing grocery lists, staying up late working, crawling into bed next to Greg, who has left the light on for me while I stayed up working until well past midnight - only to get up and do it all over again tomorrow.
Through this all, I know that we are very blessed. We are so very fortunate to be staying at Christopher's Haven. We've met some amazing families, many of whom have endured more than we have. They have given me a new appreciation, again, for what we have. Even as I wait to hear back from the doctor's on whether or not they will be starting Cam's chemotherapy earlier than originally planned, which will most likely lead to an earlier disappearance of the beautiful blonde curls that I so love to play with, I still appreciate what we have. Cam is tolerating the radiation well, even being a trooper about not being able to eat until after her treatment each day (which so far was as late as 2:10pm). Her energy level is amazing. She exhausts me. I look at her with awe every day.
She has made a few new friends at the apartments, which has been such a God-send. She anxiously awaits the end of the day, when everyone is back from their appointments, and Kennedy can come out to play. It's nice to see her acting like a "normal" kid. It makes me think of one of my favorite sayings "there is no such thing as normal, only degrees of dysfunction." Normal is what you want it to be. If this world of pediatric Cancer is my new normal (well not so new anymore since we are approaching the 2nd anniversary of Cam's original diagnosis), then so be it. But hear me stupid Cancer, we will win. I am sick of you. Pediatric Cancer may always be part of me now, but I will see the day when we can talk of how we beat you down.